If you read this blog you probably have a pretty good idea about my weekly mood. You can also get an fairly accurate pulse on the events that have shaped my life over the past 7 days. With that said, it should come as little surprise that I’ve been going through some difficult times of late.
For me, it is so easy to get bogged down in the muck of my situation and not be able to see anything else due to the mud covering my own goggles. The disappointments and struggles of life tend to encompass my whole being, and try as I might, I can get overwhelmed. Welcome to my September and October! Last week was another step in the mountain of life. But like the weather, things are beginning to change.
The wave of change began to build early in the week and continued its crescendo every day. My Friday night was just amazing. It was a place to pour out my honesty with people who expected nothing less than my reality. We all were able to leave our masks at the door and just be honest. How refreshing! At 10 pm last week I was an emotional puddle from frustration and depression. At 10 pm this week I was climbing to the mountain top with energy and excitement and the feeling that the best was yet to come.
And it did… Sunday morning I went to church knowing that my video testimony with my wife would be used in the message. I knew that some people would like it and some would not. I have shared in the past, so I have a pretty solid idea of what to expect. What I was not prepared for was the reaction of my pastor. As he made his opening remarks he began to think about our relationship and he just got choked up. The words didn’t come easily, and for a time they didn’t even come at all. For probably 20 or 30 seconds I just watched as he struggled to find them. It was a beautiful reminder that my life, while it is often tumultuous, is still valuable. It can be easy to lose focus in life. That’s what the Enemy wants to accomplish. Thanks to Pastor Todd for helping me to regain mine.