I am

In the Bible we read that God is, among other things, the Great I Am. He was, is, and always will be that.

Over the years, I have been given many labels in various circumstances. I have been “Teacher”. I have been “Son”. I have been “Brother”, “Husband”, “Father”. I have been “Daddy” then later on “Dad”. I have been “Coach”. I’ve been “The Guy That Did…” and also “Oh, That Guy”. I’ve been just a number… Yes, I’ve gathered many names through the years. This week I was reminded of yet another name that’s been bestowed upon me: I am a “Child of God” and I am “Loved by You” (with the “You” being God).

You see, I spent my week at Saddleback Church in Lake Forest, Ca attending the Celebrate Recovery Summit. We listened to testimonies that left no dry eyes in the building. We learned about how to make our recovery ministries stronger. We gathered with our Forever Family. And we worshiped. At the top of our lungs (I saw a person measure 98 decibels) we sang out to God. It was magnificent. I spend a lot of time on a stage leading worship. I play on several Sundays each month and I play every Friday night at CR, so I am not new to these songs. I am not one who is given to “emotionalism” in church; I tend to find it false and it makes me question if people understand the difference between the Holy Spirit and adrenaline. But I stood in a building with 3500 people all in one voice crying out

“You split the sea
So I could walk right through it
My fears were drowned in perfect love
You rescued me
And I could stand and sing
I am a child of God…”

and then…

“You’re a Good, Good Father
It’s who you are, it’s who you are, it’s who you are
And I’m loved by you
It’s who I am, it’s who I am, it’s who I am”

I could not make the words become notes. I was broken and wrecked with that understanding.

Yes, I’ve been given many names and labels, but here is all you need to know…

“Hi, I am a grateful Christian believer who struggles with co-dependency and pornography. My name is Paul…”

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